Trauma - POEM 14

There are different types of trauma in this world,

Some make you loose your voice,

Some make you have a voice.

The first leaves you even more vulnerable,

Unable to protect yourself,

Unable to talk back,

Unable to leave,

Unable to choose yourself,

Feeling you have no self-worth.

Then there's the second,

You try to protect yourself,

You talk back,

You leave,

You learn to choose yourself,

You may be battling with self esteem or self-worth,

But you know deep down you shouldn't be facing this,

Or maybe you think you deserve it for unexplained reasons but just refusing to fight back.

Regardless of the reasons,

It's better to die fighting than to die without putting up a fight,

Whether it's to your past, present or future,

You're deserving of love, time and attention.

You're not a jinx,

You're not weird,

You're not a bad omen,

You're just YOU,

So don't let people define you.

And don't spend your whole life on earth defining yourself by other,

Don't think of leaving,

Don't end it,

Don't give up,

You may not see the light now,

But I promise the light is there,

It will get better.

Just live,

Try living,

Continue living,

Till it's not hard anymore,

Till it feels natural,

Till you don't have to pretend anymore,

Then you'll know that giving up on life is never the solution,

Because you know you're better than before and you're healing.

So please don't give up,

Keep living and trying your best.

It does get better.

--- Nabila/ Queen Beela/ 凤星云 (Feng XingYun)